It is now 1:30ish and I have compulsively checked my voicemail 4 times this morning. I am bothered by this... I am also bothered by the fact that I have nothing to do at work so I can actually obsess all day... I am also bothered by the fact that I haven't heard anything yet and my natural pessimism is forcing me to believe that this means obviously that I didn't get the job and I will be crushed and spending the rest of my days as an alcoholic and will eventually end up a street person because I can't afford anything...